Thursday, January 31, 2013

Kiss and Tell

I had skipped my final period math class, biked two miles, and arrived at her house.  She opened the back door for me and we stashed my bike in the big pine tree in her front yard.  No one was home except her her and me.  She led me up to her room, smiling warmly, a little nervous.  Of course if I said I wasn't nervous, I'd be lying.  I'd never done anything like this before.

She sat me down on her bed.  She had a plush pink comforter with matching pillows.  She sat next to me, and we waited for some grand force to tell us when to kiss.  I turned towards her, closed my eyes, and leaned in for a kiss.  

Our mouths danced awkwardly against each other, a improvised recreation of Sixteen Candles, hopefully, my seventh grade mind thought, going towards something more American Pie.  Her mouth tasted like Listerine, lip gloss, and artificial grape.  She pulled back taking with her a long string of shared saliva.  After an awkward laugh, we kissed again, this time longer, more experienced I suppose, as their was no spit hanging from our lips when we finished this time.  Making out was so new and exciting, so we kept kissing until her sister caught us, and chased me out of the house with a heel.

After you lose your virginity, and everyone starts shtupping, no one seems to kiss any more.  Long gone are the make out sessions of High School in favor of an informal fuck with none of the run around.  There is something to be said about the beauty of a kiss, and if I were a better writer I would say it, but I'm not so here is clumsy attempt at an explanation.  

The kiss is like a handshake between lovers.  It has subtle tells which allow you to know someone more deeply sexually.  The amount of tongue, lip biting, the passion, the aggression, all of these create a sense of someone's sexual identity. A kiss is something both intimate and sexual.  An expression of attraction, love, wants, and needs, all in a silent exchange between one another.

  

5 comments:

  1. I never thought anything would make me miss awkward middle school/high school sloppy times; your description makes me want to be virginal and thrilled by mouth-touches. Definitely a really sweet description of a kiss. It seems open so it almost reads like a confessional. Also, I can taste that combo of listerine/lip gloss/grape. Yuck haha. But really distinct flavors! I'm glad you can remember them fondly.

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  2. I love the way you combined Sixteen Candles and American Pie there. It made it really clear as to how your mind was working at the time, something where innocence turns into something more. Your last paragraph is pretty impressive, too, because I'd never really thought of a kiss as so telling, but you're completely right. It can say a lot. I remember moments where I've kissed someone and automatically knew we wouldn't work out because we went for different things during the kiss. The grape/listerine combo there reminds me of OJ and toothpaste (which I think Ackerman actually mentioned in the taste chapter.)

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  3. Ahhh. Sloppy make out sessions. Classic. I enjoy how honest you are throughout the essay with the readers. When you talk of how nervous you are for you soon-to-be make out session, I automatically want to believe everything else you talk about. (We all like to think we started out as great kissers but thats never the case.) You repeat this over and over with things like the whole losing your virginity and how you never want to stop kissing when you first learn how. This makes me think that your final paragraph is just absolute truth. Awesome read

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  4. Nicely done. This really provoked a nostalgic feeling in me, and I think you've tapped into a very true observation about how kisses lose their magic overtime. This reminded me of a Raymond Chandler quote, "Alcohol is like love. The first kiss is magic, the second is intimate, the third is routine." Great job.

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  5. Beautiful responses all. So, I thought this was excellent in the fictional rhythms of the early paragraphs. We can still tell stories in nonfiction, and much fiction has the sentence structure that we're seeing there. Plot is the thing, not voice necessarily.

    Paragraph three is particularly awesome.

    Later, I'm also intrigued by the smooch-commentary, but by the fifth paragraph, I actually think the kiss of your writing is losing a little bit of its vigor, Dave. That's fine, because you're attempting a cool metaphor, and whatever. But the last sentence in particular sounds like another writer to me.

    How can you keep up the urgency of the storytelling periods even when you've verged into essayistic commentary?

    DW

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